Clarity is Insanity

Life, the Youniverse, and Every Damned Thing

2010-05-14T17:41:00.000-07:00

(NOTE: This was actually written in June of 2008, and was floating as a draft in the system as I never published it. I do so now, for your enjoyment)

So, nowadays it seems like I just drift through my days, watching the inevitable implosion/explosion of the world around me, surfing the global shitstorm with my golden surfboard of beliefs and indignance, abject horror my reaction to the situation around me as I continue to drench every day in angst and suffering, only to sit at home each night with a smile knowing that I will never, ever be happier.

When you realize that this moment, EVERY moment is simply you in the midst of a game with YOURSELF, stretching out the choice to accept fully that YES, this is all an illusion and YES, I KNOW that and, YES, of course, no doubt at all that this moment is purely a projection of my own consciousness that is happening NOW, ONLY NOW, and is being created also NOW. In this moment, you are simultaneously fully conscious of the supreme eternal divine and COMPLETE, nature of your true identity as a conscous entity and YES, at the same FUCKING time, you are also some poor, dumb human. Some fool, some idiot. Some...employee. Or Citizen. Or Member. Believer. Follower. SEARCHER. SEEKER. Perhaps one of a contemplative nature, perhaps with SO many good questions, and yes perhaps even this small silly human is just, fucking...TIRED, of the whole silly awful thing. Perhaps.

And so you have this moment. This pure, eternal moment, that shines on forever in eternity, that is but truly the constant shine of our own golden radiance, creating this moment with its gift of hypnosis, illusion, and holographic projection. The five-sense prison. The surface reality. Flatland. 3D. This fake, hollow, imaginary, deathzone which we choose to create for ourselves, is nothing but a virtual-reality chamber for our souls, pods we have been inhabiting for quite some time.

And...can't you just remember, how GOOD it CAN be? Without the greyness of this ashen fantasy, without the addiction to drama, without the need to continually seek, seek, seek, even though SEEKING can never feel SATISFYING, by its intrinsic nature. You cannot arrive by traveling. You do not swallow by chewing. Etc.

But it can be GOOD. SO good. Good in, delicious ways. Really juicy, fun, pleasant, exciting, freeing, delightful ways. I mean, everything we take drugs to have, is but a fraction of that truly available to us by LETTING GO. Letting GO. Releasing the illusion.

And I know, right, you say you know it's an illusion, you know you're not really physical by nature, that this is a hologram. I mean, you SAW The Matrix right? It's all there, along with scary robot squids. I got it.

And I say, then WHY are you not in ecstacy right know? If you know it's an illusion. I mean, if it's an ILLUSION, right, and you KNOW that, so you're like, awake in the dream, right? You can do ANYTHING YOU WANT, because it's a real-time holodeck supreme that projects your every action into physical existence, physical in this case meaning that the basic structure or blueprint of the illusion has a rigid physics to it. You are, literally, god of this moment. So then...why are you not FREE?

And then we weep, and wonder, and sigh, and blunder, and our skin sags, and then we have pooping issues, and death. And the world slows rotation, the sun dims, we die again. The UNIVERSE WINDS DOWN because we are depressed. And we are truly only depressed because the basic nature of the illusion is to cut us off from everything we are, and so yeah we feel a little fucked up about it. I mean, consider the multi-fuck going on here: You, defined as the "you" YOU refer to when you say "I", is creating a life for ITSELF, while at another level your true consciousness continues to emerge, and so you get this feeling of being god AND Job, or whichever other poor sap chose to suffer for an invisible compadre.

I mean, at this point, haven't we done enough shit to ourselves? Haven't we just, like, exhausted the whole drama, illusion, pain suffering DUALITY bullshit fucking, whatever this is that we KEEP DOING EVERY DAY. We seek, we suffer, we find balance. Lather, rinse, repeat. Little fishes going upstream, then down, then back, then again. Why. And when you KNOW THAT YOU ARE GOD, at least A god...well then, what's the point of ambition? What are you topping? And who are you trying to be better than? The rest of God? You as one aspect of the Whole trying to compete, outdo the other parts? The hand fighting the foot? The tongue competes with the kneecap. Pointless, and boring, and so played out. Let it go, move on.

Yes, we are a bit rambly today, which is fine, as we have gone through so much change that it's almost as if there is an entire new entity using the body, which is far more accurate and fast if you let it do its own thing. Ah yes, much better! SO anyway, the whole point is that in truth we are but dreamers dreaming, and can so quickly wake up from any nightmare. And we ARE in a nightmare. To god, getting up early every day and going to an office job...IS a nightmare. Hmm, float within and throughout a flame of everlasting bliss....or collate? Expand into all creation...or do some filing? Hm? Hard choice, I know, right?

WE CAN HAVE THIS. It is OURS. WE KNOW THIS. And we WILL have it, ALL OF IT, every last fucking drop of everything we ever thought belonged to us, plus a lot of other shit we never even thought of. It will all come falling in on us, a massive flow of STUFF, of THINGS, a pure manifestation of a christmas-sacksplosion of showering presents and gifts, all of us dancing, no mess to clean up, just pure driven snow and joy and warmth and cool breezes and nothing else, nothing to scare us and CERTAINLY nothing to bore us.

We ALL live in a state of perfect bliss. The lens on the projector is CLEAR. But the film shows some disturbing images. We may need to keep an eye on this particular filmmaker, has a bent towards self-punishment. See? We are the author, writer, creator, whatever, of this moment and EVERY moment. What else could it be? How else could it work?

And what does it FEEL like? Feels RIGHT, doesn't it? Feels right. And, everything lines up. It all makes sense. Every question, Big Question, about life that has ever been asked, answers itself when you accept that we are creating all of this. What is the meaning of life? Well, if you mean this physical life, not much. It's pretty much a short-lived fantasy with karma. You only SEARCH for meaning WITHIN it because that's the nature of the illusion. That's what it DOES. Why else would you even need to know? I mean, have you ever considered how bizarre the actual "accepted" view of our reality is? That we, these brilliant and wonderful conscious entities, are just...accidents, of a biological progression? Meat-people, run by genes and hormones? I mean, I live in America, so I get how that impression is formed, but speaking for myself my internal world alone is enough to prove to me that we are SO MUCH FUCKING MORE THAN JUST HUMANS!!! I mean, my GOD. It is SO OBVIOUS! How can you even pretend that you are a man, or a woman, human, whatever, how can you even PRETEND that that is your basic identity. YOU ARE A HAND-PUPPET. You are simply a SPACE, for EXPRESSION. You are NOT a REAL BEING. YOU, are the manifestation of a massive consciousness, as it dips into this illusion to play in the energyies of 3D. You are not a human person with a "life". There ARE no "LIVES". There are simply spaces within which the divine soul moves its energy to feel the fun of the physical, and that is all. You are not human, you are not real, you are not anything but the expression.

And, I do not at ALL attempt to demean you. The opposite in fact, I say this so you ACCEPT, and MOVE ON. There is not more for you. All of your human fantasies have played out. All you have left is your true reality...and you know this...and, really man, I hate to be the one to tell you, but this is NOT how it works. You, are a consciousness that formed in the void left by the aspect of your TOTAL divine consciousness when it did not enter fully earlier in your life. Why is not a matter to discuss, suffice to say that as this total You comes in, EVERY aspect of the old You must depart, because it's as if you are trying to inhabit an old trusty shell, and so in clinging to its comforting smallness you also fuck up your ascending biology by suffocation. To put it clearly so the mind understands, This YOU, is NOT "YOU", the REAL you. Your full beingness did not come in earlier in life, so you filled in with other stuff, now it's coming in, and so what you filled in with can stop trying to do the job of the WHOLE being, and just relax and enjoy EVERYTHING.

Just so you know, EVERY DESIRE YOU HAVE, that feels like a wanting...is but a manifestation of your true essence. Meaning, you are holding out the satisfaction of your every desire because you are trying so damned hard to satisfy your every desire. You are clogging up the money shoot with money bags. You are blotting out the sun with magnifying glasses. You are...blocking this EFFORTLESS flow, this SO EASY-ness of all things...when you try so hard. Do not TRY, at all. Do, or do not. This means, you are truly the creator, either choose this or that, do not imagine that there are things you must try...you can do the first time. Fuck trying.

And so...yeah. The big nugget. Which is...I feel so in control of my existence, like I'm HERE...and yet...I know that's not ME. It's a fucking hologram. I mean, the body is fake. All light and magnetic fields. And the conscious perspective...please. It's a joke. It's a pinpoint, cut off from everything, alone and amnesiac. And bathed in a stream of lies and twisted bullshit from entrance to exit. Never had a chance. And again, we know this. I mean, we know this is all just a fantasy of layered bullshit. Body, bullshit. Soul, bullshit. Humanity, bullshit. Country? HUGE pile of bullshit. It's ALL BULLSHIT. And, we KNOW this...and we keep going to work. We keep trying to make money to be free. Keep trying to change people, keep trying to let our pain steer. Letting our fear and insanity make all the plans, while the best feelings inside are used as an example of foolishness.

See, I don't get to just lay around all day because everyone else is so insane they go to work, and they don't want to have to share with some unemployed guy. Meanwhile it's like, we're ALL unemployed! This is make-believe, I'm president now, give me your income tax. Cash, grass or ass, I just gotta settle this invoice.

Alright, I shall disconnect the wordpipe for the nonce. But seriously, since everything I've said is so true it hurts...WHY ARE YOU GOING TO WORK???

Yeah, I know you don't know.

Sex Smells

2007-04-26T14:40:00.000-07:00

Penis:

Cock, dick, wang, weiner, schlong, shaft, hardon, bone, pole.

Vagina:

Pussy, twat, cunt, snatch, slit, cooch.

What the fuck? What is wrong with us?

Why is there no NEUTRAL word for the male and female genitals?

If I want to refer to these body parts, I have to either use the MEDICAL terminology, or resort to street slang. There is no in-between. And this is ONLY true of the genitals.

Take, for example, your CRANIUM.

Cranium is the scientific term.

There are other slang terms, such as melon, dome, etc.

And there is a common, NEUTRAL term: Head.

You do not say, "I hit my cranium".

Nor do you say, "I have a melonache"

Or, say, your Gluteus.

Scientific term. Slang terms are Ass, Booty, etc.

And the common, NEUTRAL term: Butt.

You do not say, "Look at that chick's gluteus!"

Nor would you tell a child to sit down on their ass.

Fingers are actually called metacarpals. The ears are actually called pinae. Your belly is called an abdomen. And so forth. All body parts have a common name, a scientific/medical term, and slang. EXCEPT the genitals.

My point?

Simple. American culture is arrested in such a stage of adolescent sexuality, that the language only contains words for genitals that are either scientific, or vulgar.

And as a result, when I talk during sex I am constantly embarrassed to find the right word.

"Oh, yeah, suck my dick"

I'm sorry, I feel stupid calling it a "dick".

I've known a lot of "Dick"s, and don't want to associate them with my own delicious experience of oral sex.

"Mmm, lick my balls"

Again, I don't want to call them balls. They are not balls. They are actually somewhat egg-shaped, which is why at least the spanish slang Huevos (eggs) makes better sense (even though I'd never use the word, as I don't find dairy sexy). Calling them balls, feels like calling your legs sticks, or calling your hair hay. It's not an actual term FOR that body part, but rather a slang term that only alludes to the part through visual comparison.

"Yeah, spread your pussy open"

I don't want to call it a pussy! No one likes the damn word! But as CUNT is the next-best alternative (unless twat is more to your liking), we all say Pussy.

I don't like that. Pussy is, phonetically, a wet messy word. That hard "PUH!" at the front, and the wet "SSSSSS!" in the middle...it's a sloppy word. It creates offense. And it's used to name a part of the body that SO doesn't want to be sloppy in any way...I really don't think anyone likes it. But hey, as it's the ONLY word, besides VAGINA, then it gets use.

Our language does not contain any term for genitals that is not either cold and scientific, or crude and vulgar. Every other body part has a common name, EXCEPT for the genitals.

And, I am NOT telling ANYONE to "Suck my penis".

Nor will I ever tell anyone what a "Tight wet vagina" they have.

It's fucking lame! And NOT sexy.

And, I can get into calling my penis a cock or a dick, and calling her vagina a cunt or a pussy, but the whole point is I shouldn't have to. There should be names for things that are the ACTUAL, COMMON name for that thing, IN ADDITION TO the various slang/scientific terms.

But American culture is still stuck in the tit-staring stage, and so for the present we have either penises and vaginas, or cocks and cunts.

Which shouldn't be surprising in a culture of such intense contradiction. A nation where it's illegal for a woman to walk down the street naked, but legal for that same woman to charge people to see her naked. A culture where a woman is called a whore for charging money for sex, and called easy if she fucks a man who HASN'T bought her anything yet. A culture which idolizes male sluts, and condemns female studs. A culture which values pornographic violence so much that they show it to children as entertainment, and yet hides sexual pornography because it's "vulgar and offensive". We live among some of the most sexually-confused people on earth, and worse they're all convinced that they are "enlightened about sex".

Oh yeah?

Then let women walk down the street topless JUST LIKE MEN GET TO.

Let all people sit nude on their front lawns, spread-legged and soaking up the sun.

Let people buy, sell, trade, advertise sex all they wish. Their genitals, their choice.

Show sex on TV. REAL sex. Penetration sex. Fluid-spurting, name-calling sex.

Currently on network TV you can show blood and brains squirting from a shattered skull,

but not semen squirting from a hard dick.

Zombies fondling entrails,

but no one fondling breasts.

Etc.

This America is a bunch of hypocritical, prudish perverts.

They hide something just so they can be titillated by revealing it.

I bet there're not a lot of strip clubs in Kenya, huh?

Alright. I've said my piece for now.

But just know, a day will dawn in this land,

Where we shall all be naked and free,

fucking and sucking and dancing and singing,

All Day Long.

And we will have proper names for our genitals,

and nudity will be the norm, clothing for decoration or utility.

And perversion will cease to be, rape, molestation will all but vanish.

Once sex is no longer hidden, left to rot in the dark,

it shall flourish in full daylight, releasing its sicknesses and becoming Whole.

Massive orgies will take place regularly. Sex will be an open, shameless experience of sensual exploration, intimacy, and excitement. Venereal disease will evaporate, as the negative beliefs that spawned such sexual imbalance are released, such sad relics of a dark past. Sex will BECOME the new form of social interaction.

And if you can't get laid THEN,

well, brother, I don't know what to tell you.

Evasive-Revisionist-Asshole-American

2007-04-12T12:53:00.000-07:00

African-American.

BULLSHIT.

Calling black people "African-American" is the ultimate in PC bullshit mind-control whitewashing.

As if it meant the same thing as Mexican-American, or Japanese-American.

As if they are just immigrants from Africa, come to the New World to chase the American Dream.

BULLSHIT!!!

First, they were AFRICANS.

Then, they were KIDNAPPED.

Then, they were CARGO.

Then, they were ENSLAVED BY AMERICANS.

They were used as the labor foundation for the Colonies.

(Free labor creates QUITE a spike in prosperity, don't you know.)

America FED off of the BLOOD of these poor enslaved people, for generations.

Then, eventually, way too late (which seems to be the American Style), people started to wise up a bit, decided maybe enslaving an entire race was kinda, uh, UN-AMERICAN.

And then the slaves were "freed", meaning they were released from literal bondage and delivered into cultural bondage.

And as there was no fleet of ships ready to whisk them back to THEIR OWN DISTANT CONTINENT, these ex-slaves had to put down roots in the very same land where their families had been tortured and murdered.

Generations later, due to the incredibly strong spirits of these African people, and in spite of the culture of repression held in place by the majority of Americans, these ex-slaves had finally risen to a place of true autonomy, economic independence (in a relative sense), true Freedom, insofar as freedom ever exists in America.

The American culture finally decided to embrace these people, these "black" people, as equals.

(Seems to me that if you can succeed as a race among an alien culture that does all it can to ruin you, then you are actually BETTER, not equal, but whatever, right?)

And so, as they had in past years jettisoned the obviously-offensive slang terms for ex-slaves (darky, boy, jigaboo, pickaninny, spade, nigger, etc.), Americans tried new, Progressive terms such as Negro, or Afro-Americans (which was a confusing term, as does the Jewfro qualify one as Afro-?). And the ex-slaves felt offended by these as well. So then "Black" seemed to the term to use, and worked fine for many years, until in their INTENSE compassion and racial sensitivity the PR branch of American culture decided to create a NEW, FINAL, and PERFECT abuse-free term for these descendants of African slaves:

African-American.

And once again, American culture drops a steaming turd.

African-American?

This term is a term of revisionist history, meant to absolve all white guilt related to black enslavement.

To call them African-Americans is to imply that their people chose to come to this country, that they came as free people, and were treated as equals.

To call them African-American implies that their African culture was valued, rather than beaten out of them.

Implies that they were ever considered Americans, even though they had the rights of livestock.

It ignores slavery. Ignores that the wealth of this nation was built on slavery.

Ignores that their entire relationship with America is one of enduring horrific uninvited abuse.

These Africans were kidnapped, tortured and murdered, treated as dangerous dumb animals, worked to death, bred like livestock, kept from any education, and finally set loose in the wild American frontier with no lifeskills, amidst an entrenched culture of discrimination and outright hostility.

They are NOT African-Americans. Not at all. You know who is?

Charlize Theron. Born in South Africa, emigrated to the U.S.

These descendants of slaves, are neither African OR American.

Their African culture was whipped out of them, and American culture never attempted to include them.

They are, Black People.

Why do I say this?

Because it's a simple slang term that refers to them by basic appearance (like you would refer to me as "That guy with the long curly hair and muttonchops"). And it seems to be the way they refer to themselves, which to me is a good indicator of what to call someone.

Like, if I know a guy who refers to himself as Mike, well shit, I'll call him Mike too.

Like calling Caucasians "White People". A simple slang term, that is only offensive if you WANT to take offense; there's no abuse in the term itself.

I know black people aren't actually black, and whites ain't white (except the English).

We COULD go with Brown people and Pinkish-Beige people...but that's just confusing and too wordy.

Or we could call them Kidnapped Africans Who Were Enslaved And Then Were Later Freed And Recognized As Human But Still Discriminated Against For Decades Until Finally Culture Evolved Enough That Bigots Were In The Minority And They Were Treated Mostly As Equals Even Though The Past Was Never Addressed...but again, wordy as fuck.

Really, it's not about the term. It's about being honest with ourselves. And calling these amazingly strong people, this entire race that managed to survive hundreds of years of abuse and repression, terror, debasement, everything, calling them African-Americans...just seems a little too easy on the White conscience. Like they just came over for the Freedom Fries, and stayed for the chunky white women.

I don't say African American. It's a PR term, invented by whites to whitewash white guilt. And worst of all, it's supposed to be used to HONOR black people, as a nonoffensive label they should be proud of. Because of all this, I never use the term African-American.

Also, I don't really know any black people.

Sounds SO familiar...

2007-03-21T11:10:00.000-07:00

We have no interest in oppressing other people. We are not moved by hatred against any other nation. We bear no grudge. I know how grave a thing war is. I wanted to spare our people such an evil. It is not so much the country of Czechoslovakia; it is rather its leader, Edward Benes. He has led a reign of terror. He has hurled countless people into the profoundest misery. Through his continuous terrorism, he has succeeded in reducing millions of his people to silence. The Czech maintenance of a tremendous military arsenal can only be regarded as a focus of danger. We have displayed a truly unexampled patience, but I am no longer willing to remain inactive while this madman ill-treats millions of human beings."

- Adolf Hitler, April 14th, 1939

Brains!!!!

2007-02-02T11:11:00.000-08:00

There’s something you’ve always wanted to do.

And you don’t do it.

Some way you’ve always wanted to feel.

And you’ve never felt it.

Someone you want to be.

That you never are.

Dreams, desires, wishes, passions,

All laying dead in the dust.

Never used.

We come into this life filled with passion, desire, hope and excitement.

This unbridled flow fills our young bodies with light and sensation.

We have endless energy, heal instantly, always smile, always want to dance and play.

We have optimism around everything we see (which causes adults to label us as Young-Minded). We truly believe that what we desire, shall belong to us.

And then.

A wall of limits slams into us. We are drowned in a sea of unanswered prayers. All that we know that we are and all that we feel that we can be, is lost in the flood of grey hopelessness, the sign of our giving up our desires in order to “be realistic”.

We shut down. We shrink. We harden, and darken. This, we call “Growing Up”.

Our bodies start to stiffen and weaken. We become tired. We age, we get sick, we get hurt and heal oh so slowly. We think back to the golden light of our childhood, and chuckle at our foolish dreams of happiness and fulfillment. Child’s dreams.

In gaining our adulthood, we turn our backs on everything that made us golden, made us beautiful. We accept the lie that we can’t have everything we want, we embed this poisoned program into our hearts, and let our life cease growing, but rather go to seed and decay. And we feel satisfied, that we are no longer trying to live out some fantasy, but rather are now in the “Real World”.

Bullshit.

The “Real World” is a massive hallucination, created when millions of conscious beings all align their hearts with a false Truth. The flow through our hearts projects the poison program as a 3D illusion, one which surrounds and encases us. A dingy, gray cloak of limitation and lost hope, secured to us by the acceptance that we were being Unrealistic, to actually believe that we were on Earth to have joy and freedom, to express our golden truths, to bathe in the glow of the radiance of perfection that we all carry within us.

And because everyone is telling the same lie with each breath, the Lie becomes the Truth that surrounds us. We accept it AS our reality. And so, when the child comes to us, with the beaming clear eyes and the springy soft body, we explain to this young soul that endless hope is unrealistic, that you can’t always get what you want, that suffering builds character and that hard work is the answer to any problem.

The child walks away, confused, its energy dimming, its heart closing. In a few years, that child will be perfect for the Real World. Hard worker, committed to its job, real reliable and trustworthy. A Good Citizen.

We have helped this child kill itself, and worse it doesn’t know it’s dead, and keeps walking.

Our offices are staffed with the walking dead.

A cubicle is just a casket with Internet access.

And our culture is a fungus.

Hey! How about this?

When a child shows you their light,

Let it illuminate YOU!

When someone’s joy seems unrealistic,

accept that you are the Walking Dead.

That feeling you came in with, no matter how early on it was extinguished,

Stills lies at the center of you.

It is the small glow

That waits to be fanned into flame

By your breath.

It sits within you,

Waiting to be allowed out to play.

And when you finally set it free,

It will know instantly the lie you have lived,

The joy you have sold to a system that has no use for it.

And it will tell you, that it knew the WHOLE TIME that you were just afraid.

Afraid to live what you ARE.

Afraid to be what you ARE.

Afraid, simply afraid,

That you are so grand and beautiful,

That once they get a look at you,

They’ll tear you to pieces.

Because the Walking Dead know they sold their souls.

It hurts them to remember.

And when they see your golden soul unfurled and radiating,

They are forced to feel.

And what they feel is worse than pain;

It’s the space where pain would be,

If they still knew how to feel.

You are ready. It is time.

There ARE NO MORE EXCUSES.

So, what will it be?

The Walking Dead?

Or the Dance of Life?

Hmmm…..

Dark Matters

2006-12-28T10:28:00.000-08:00

So much controversy over the word Nigger.

White people can't say it.

Black people can't stop saying it.

I say, the only people who SHOULD still be saying Nigger, are white people.

After all, white people INVENTED the word Nigger; it's a part of their cultural heritage.

And as Nigger is such an integral and defining aspect of White culture, I for one don't like to see black people co-opting it, just so they can look cool.

And black people started using it to disempower it.

Hm, how's that working out?

And since the word Nigger was used to label a fictitious, racist concept of some type of sub-human race perceived by the bigoted Whites, it can only be used as an insult. So, why are black people going around insulting each other? How is recycling this abuse-loaded word back into popular language, supposed to help heal the abuse?

I see, in the future, black culture adopting more and more remnants of slavery as a means to disempower it.

I see a new belt accesory, the lime green suede slavemaster's whip (also available in plum).

I see gold-plated, platinum-inlaid slave collars, complete with iPod.

Perhaps, even, the return of shucking and/or jiving.

If you ask ME, the best way to let the past go,

is to let the past GO.

Or, you know, keep dragging it around with you. Whichever.

Quote of the Day

2006-11-30T13:27:00.000-08:00

"The more complex the philosophy,

the greater the Lie it conceals"

R

Pray in one hand, shit in the other..a-HA, but I prayed for a handful of SHIT!

2006-11-15T13:08:00.000-08:00

CHRISTIANS!!!

I have a complaint.

See, there is Cosmic Will,

A sort of Unified, Magnetic Field of Consciousness

that flows through and around all things.

(You know, the Force.)

Well, this Force IS the Universal Intelligence.

Or, as you people like to call it, "God".

Now, I understand that you Christians don't really TRUST this God.

Which is why you are CONSTANTLY trying to influence It.

This Perfect, Unified Flow which manifests an agenda of PERFECTION,

in every space it flows.

It's not good enough for you.

You won't just LET GOD HAPPEN.

Instead, YOU decide that what GOD wants for ALL

is just not good enough for YOU.

So, you PRAY.

PRAY.

You gather in groups, link up energies,

and try to BEND THE WILL OF THE UNIVERSE TO YOUR OWN DESIGNS.

And then the world is full of chaos, and you wonder WHY.

Hmm.

You pray for a resolution of conflicts worldwide.

Now, how are these social imbalances going to find their own resolution,

when you bend the Will of the All to KEEP people from fighting?

Sometimes, fighting is the only way for two groups to truly engage each other.

You need not understand it (though I bet you DO understand, all too well).

You need only to ACCEPT that THEY are doing what is BEST for THEM.

And FORGIVE them.

NOT for what they are doing (which requires NO forgiveness from ANYone),

but FROM YOUR OWN SHALLOW NEEDS.

Forgive them of the burden of evolving in a form that YOU will understand,

and rather, FREE them to continue working out their own business their own way.

Or, you pray for a certain political candidate to win election.

Hmm. So, democracy is just TOO FAIR for you?

You need to use prayer,

to sway the will of the People,

towards the WANTS of your team.

Hmm.

You Christians, who would outwardly condemn

ANY attempt by ANY group

to use their power of influence

to get THEIR needs met OVER the needs of others,

You who claim to care SO MUCH for EVERYONE,

have a philosophy based in the use of TELEPATHIC TERRORISM.

If you TRULY ACCEPT the PERFECTION of the OVERSOUL,

this infinite web of loving awareness,

that ever-so-gently guides the motion

of dust and democracies,

a floating eyelash or a bloated empire,

and all in the middle,

if you TRULY ACCEPT THAT YOUR GOD IS PERFECTION,

then put your manna where your mouth is,

AND STOP PRAYING.

(I mean it, cut it out, I can HEAR it late at night)

Shallow for a change

2006-11-09T13:12:00.000-08:00

Okay...

Normally I task myself with creating something profound(-ish) here, keeping my more shallow thoughts and assertions to myself and whomever I happen to be smoking weed with.

But this just won't go away.

See, Kirstie Alley is now a spokesperson for Weight Watchers.

She is shown in a number of commercials now,

displaying her newly-slenderish physique

as photo proof that this Weight Watchers thing

actually works.

But...

SHE HAS A DIGITAL CHIN!!!!!

There, I said it. In the commercials, CGI has been used to add a shadow which outlines her chin. That is, CREATES for her a chin.

Without the digital shadow, she would look like a talking thumb.

If you doubt, check out the next commercial you see. Digital chin in effect.

Now, it is not so that this is AT ALL my first experience with deceptive advertising practices.

I am not even bothered by this merely "on principle".

No. What I see, is a woman on TV, flaunting her reduced figure as THE selling point for some system of prepackaged meals. And her chin is a special effect. AND NO ONE SEEMS TO NOTICE!!!

This makes me freeze in wonder. That I live among these people, who do not see what they look at, and in other places see what was never there.

And they ALL voted yesterday.

Me, I cast but one vote yesterday. Not by ballot, but by action.

I voted "Hell Yes" on smoking a fat bowl.

And guess what? I made sure my vote was counted (by me).

Perhaps they'll count yours at some point, too.

Remember folks, if they REALLY wanted us ALL to vote,

they'd do it on a Saturday.

All You Need Is Love (but the weed helps)

2006-11-09T12:50:00.000-08:00

Ah, True Love.

Magnificent. Perfect.

But...

Well, it's the whole monogamy thing.

See, your True Love is like your hometown.

It is very familiar,

comforting.

Your fondest memories come from it.

It is Home, the best place for you,

where you can be happier than any other place.

Its loving influence made you what you are today.

It is so familiar, you can tell by the color of the sky

what the weather will bring that night.

You know things about it no casual visitor knows,

the secret places that hold special gifts

only for you.

It is Beautiful, it is Perfect, it is Home,

and there is no other place

where you will ever feel so Whole.

But...

You see other places on TV.

Exotic, new places.

With tastes and smells

you've never experienced.

New sights, new experiences,

calling, inviting...

But...

You know that if you VISIT one of these places,

you can never come Home again.

Shit. Guess I'm Home.

(hey, put on the Travel Channel again...)

"...so tell me, where will the children Jihad?"

2006-11-02T09:17:00.000-08:00

Overheard in an office, in a large biotech company, staffed by educated professionals:

"What?!? I didn't know Cat Stevens was a terrorist!"

That's why voting doesn't work, see? Because ANYONE can do it.

'Scuse me, while I kiss the sky people

2006-10-12T11:15:00.000-07:00

Throughout the history of Earth, we have been routinely seeded with advanced technology by beings from the sky.

These beings come down in shining craft, make contact and bestow wisdom and gifts unto the people, that aid them in jumping to the next level of human experience.

This has always happened. Texts of history show repeated visitations from sky people who bestow gifts. Myth, legend, oral histories, show that this has happened forever. They come down, leave their gifts and wisdom, and leave for a very long time.

And the people, being limited, never fully comprehend the motives and teachings of the sky beings. So they fill in the gaps with imagination, inventing the world where the sky ships came from, inventing possible motives. These become the legends of the sky people, the beings from above, the angels from the heavens.

And these legends, being both fascinating and untrue, and existing in a vacuum of actual information, blossom and mutate into fantastic belief systems, rituals and incantations geared towards pleasing these sky beings so as to gain their favor. Many believe that once THEY get the sky people's attention, they will get the gifts, and the power.

And then many others who see an opportunity in this, will claim to have a relationship with these beings, claim that they communicate with them regularly, and understand them. These people promise to the struggling masses that through THEM, their pleas will be heard and answered by the sky people. And they warn, of course, to not follow the OTHER people who claim a relationship to these heavenly creatures, as these others are mere charlatans. Follow a charlatan, and you can be certain the sky folk will be mad at you, maybe crush you. Best to follow me instead, as mine is the true path. Oh, and there's a fee.

And the different groups under different leaders argue and fight, divide and separate. They war, they flee, they destroy. All to guarantee their Right to the gifts from heaven. After long stretches of time, many groups forget who the sky beings ever were, and just continue on knowing there's simply a force in the heavens that they must please.

And finally, once all this has passed, once many, many generations are come and gone, and the myths and legends have dissappeared into history, the sky beings return once again, and bring gifts to a growing world.

p.s. Did you know, that all of the traditional edible grains on the planet (such as rice, corn, wheat, barley, etc.) are of unknown origin? That the gulf of separation between the wild (inedible by humans) and cultivated (edible) strains is so vast, that for humans to have bred the wild grain into edible grain would have taken 1000 years of cultivation? 1000 years of harvesting, picking the best strains, replanting, growing, harvesting, season after season, year into decade into century, all the while the harvest is inedible. Wow, what foresight. Or, as many cultural myths clearly explain, they were gifts from the Sky People.

p.p.s. Fun Fact: Can you explain how Native Americans knew of certain planetary moons and celestial details (location and nature of distant star systems), for centuries, that were only "discovered" by the White Man in the late 1900's? The Natives could. They got the info from Sky People from Sirius.

Everbody Loves Jesus!

2006-10-12T10:58:00.000-07:00

Currently working a temp job with the Rescue Mission, a Christian organization that aids the homeless and other needy types.

In charge of the October Safety Newsletter. Considering a Halloween motif for the layout. Concerned with Halloween's pagan connotations and their potential to offend Christians.

So, I ask an employee here whether a Halloween theme would be offensive to the Christians involved with the Rescue Mission. I explain that I ask because I am not Christian, and so have no basis of reference. Her response?

"Well, 'Christian' just means that you believe in God."

Really. I had to engage numerous office-related body language subroutines to keep my face from fully displaying my bemused incredulousness.

I had no idea, that apparently most Earth religions are in fact Christian. Islam? Christian. Jews? Surprise, Christian. Bet they wish they knew back in '39, that they were on the same team as Adolf...would've saved the long commute to Auschwitz.

Whooda thunkit? That anyone with a belief in some form of cosmic, divine consciousness that links all things, is Christian. That's some crafty semantics, if you ask me.

One again, Christians, you got it all worked out.

Oh, and it was decided that an "Autumnal" theme would be just fine.

Perfect Failure

2006-08-03T15:37:00.000-07:00

We are Perfection.

We spend every moment in perfect Ecstacy.

All of our desires are fulfilled perfectly, at every moment.

We know ALL THINGS, and this knowing informs every action perfectly.

Joy and love is the only Truth.

SO,

what the fuck are we doing, to warp our perfection into the grey shit lives we lead?

Well, look at your beliefs.

The thoughts you have about yourself all day.

The judgments you make about others.

The basic fundamental truths you accept as real, that were taught TO you by another.

Your identity.

Your personality.

See? You destroy, at every moment, the perfect resolution of your every desire, by creating a dark web of belief systems and accepted truths, which are ALL LIES. A crystalline cage, built by you from birth, which warps and bends Perfection into this very IMperfect-seeming moment you are in right now.

So...what the fuck do I do?

CHOOSE DIFFERENT SHIT.

Remember, there WILL be a point in your existence, where you see with perfect clarity how you created EVERY moment of this life. And, you will have ultimate compassion with the choices you made. Which is fortunate, as without perfect compassion you will be crippled with fundamental regret, that you were God on earth and acted like, well, YOU.

Jesus fuck. You KNOW better! BE better. Be YOU! NOW!!!!!

A first step:

Find one simple thing you have wanted for a long time, and never got.

Sit alone, eyes closed, and talk to yourself about why you never got it.

Feel the storm of excuses. Feel the helplessness you have accepted for yourself. Most of all, feel the brilliant way you have convinced youself that what you want, YOU DON'T DESERVE.

With all of these beliefs in place, how the FUCK could this thing EVER come into your life?

It could come to the door wrapped like a gift, and you would send it away.

"Oh, this must not be for me. I don't feel right accepting it. Thanks, though!"

You send every gift away. Smiling.

And then wonder why you are so poor.

Earth-a-Sketch

2006-06-08T09:16:00.000-07:00

Imagine the world as an Etch-a-Sketch.

At first, it is blank.

Then, a line is drawn,

and another,

then another.

Each line connects to the one before,

even if it goes in another direction,

or crosses the first.

More and more lines are drawn.

More and more is created.

Eventually,

you end up with the screen totally black,

completely full.

The entire creative potential of the space

has been exhausted.

You cannot create anything more,

the plane is maxed-out.

To make a new line,

you must draw it over the old,

repeating your creations

invisibly, fruitlessly.

SO,

if the world were an Etch-a-Sketch,

and we had filled the whole thing up,

SO MUCH,

that there was nothing left to create

and no place to create it,

what would God do,

to give us a fresh start?

He'd shake the fucker up.

God Loves Fags

2006-05-19T10:46:00.000-07:00

Attention Straight People!

I'm sorry, but you're on the way out.

You have too many children,

and devour the resources of Earth,

resources which everyone must share.

Your gender polarizations

create emotional imbalances

which permeate society.

You tend to dress badly.

We have tolerated you for ages,

but now that we are at a tipping point,

and overpopulation endangers the planet,

you are going to have to try harder

to fit into our society.

I know, you're saying,

"But I was born this way"

"This is who I AM!"

I'm sorry. You're the one

who made the choice to BE straight.

You must also bear the consequences.

As we know,

gay people are the only people on earth

guaranteed to never have children

by accident.

Were you more responsible with YOUR procreation,

perhaps we could give you some leeway,

but unfortunately due to your obsession

with aberrative penile-vaginal intercourse,

you just keep having children.

And we are running out of room.

So, though we are sorry to say it,

straight people simply have no place

in our modern society.

Luckily for you,

there are plenty available

who can help you make the transition

to your natural state,

where God truly wants you to be.

If you have any questions about gayness,

ask someone! A priest, for example.

He should be able to get you right on track.

Yes, it is somewhat sad.

We always enjoyed your organized sports,

your car-based competitions,

your charming repressive urges.

Unfortunately, we simply cannot afford

to have any more babies clogging the Earth.

I'm sure you understand.

In the future, if you can display

that you have finally gotten

your procreative urges under control,

we may reconsider.

Until that point, no fucking.

And try to keep the music low?

(it's really terrible)

Thank you!

Profundity Abounds

2006-05-19T10:31:00.000-07:00

Modern humans view Government

as one of their grandest creations, as a race.

Which seems foolish,

when you consider,

that government only exists,

because humans don't trust each other.

What all religions have in common,

is what they have right.

They differ,

only in the ways that they miss the point.

Contemplating the Meaning of Life,

is simply a sign of boredom.

If you're enjoying yourself,

you tend not to care.

The true disparity between the genders?

Hanging your tits out = free lunch at a restaurant.

Hanging your cock out = "Free Jeff" on a picket sign.

Regardless of what people may say to the contrary,

we are only, ever, afraid,

of that which we desire.

"My Other Car is a Car also"

2006-05-19T10:24:00.000-07:00

Actual license plate frame spotted in the SFV recently:

"Jenny and Melissa

Love Hot-Tub play with Grandpa"

Where...does one file such a thing?

It did remind me of my own

never-produced license plate frame concepts:

"Porn Stars

do it on camera",

"Prostitutes

do it with strangers for cash",

"Oral Surgeons

do it in your mouth while you're unconscious".

Yes, I am THAT awesome.

Conversations with Gawd

2006-05-18T15:06:00.000-07:00

"God?"

"Yes, my child?"

"What year is it, in Heaven?"

"Why, it is always Now."

"And how long have you existed?"

"Forever."

"Well, when will you die?"

"Never, my child."

"Well, can you tell me when I'll die?"

"Nah, I don't want to ruin your weekend."

"God?"

"Yes, my child."

"Does true love exist?"

"Of course it does.
I feel true love
for every atom of my creation."

"Well, I've met someone,
and I love her with all my heart.
Should I ask her to marry me?"

"Hmm...does she have big tits?"

"God?"

"..."

"God??"

"..."

"GOD?!?!"

"WHAT, Jesus! I'm sleeping here!"

"Sorry my Lord, I have a question."

"*sigh* Alright, what is it?"

"Lord, what is the purpose of life?

"The purpose...of life...
is to be VERY, VERY QUIET,
so that God can SLEEP, OK?
Very quiet."

"...ok, yes, but-"

"What did I say?
You wanted the purpose, I gave it.
You don't want to go to Hell, do you?"

"Well, no, of course n-"

"Exactly, now shut the fuck up
and let God sleep, 'kay?
...christ...always in the middle
of a good sex dream, too..."

R

The Gospel of St. Randy

2006-03-29T09:18:00.000-08:00

Okay.

Having lived in these United States for this entire life,

I have been QUITE privy to the popular superstition in these parts.

CHRISTIANITY.

Now, having been so exposed to this doctrine for so long,

and being one who tends to think and reason independently,

I have long been perplexed by the seeming contradictions,

apparent within the dogma.

As such,

I present this short list,

just my way of giving some clarity,

back to this community,

which has done SO MUCH both for,

and TO,

us all.

Enjoy.

Okay, first off if your God is an all-knowing being,

he knows your thoughts and feelings,

so, prayer is redundant.

Cut it out.

On that matter, why do you pray UP?

Is God a spaceman?

And on that subject, conversely,

does Satan really live inside the Earth?

Is he King of the Mole People?

And, if Satan DOES live inside the Earth,

Then he is MUCH closer to us than God,

who lives I guess either in deep space,

or in another dimension of some kind.

Either way, Satan is far more present in our lives.

No WONDER he's a greater influence on humanity.

You know God, if you really wanted to make a difference,

you should've moved closer to your kids.

And as for Hell, just as a concept,

let me get this straight:

We have only one human lifespan,

like, 60-70 years,

to audition for Heaven.

And if we don't make the cut,

we get tortured in Hell FOREVER!!!

70 years....FOREVER.

I don't care how evil you are,

what can you do in 70 years,

that makes you deserve an ETERNITY

of torture?

Even a murderous child molester,

after 1,000 years of being assraped in Hell,

would be like,

"Shit...why am I here again? I forget, it's been so long."

I say, let the punishment fit the crime.

You spend 50 years being an asshole,

you go to Hell for 50.

Then, Heaven,

though you do have to go door-to-door,

and warn them that you're living in the neighboorhood.

"Hi, I just moved in next door, and I am required by Divine Law,

to inform you that I am a registered Sin Offender."

And on the subject of eternal torture,

would not even the most heinous torture imaginable,

get boring after 100,000 years?

I mean, yeah at first being assraped by Mt. Kilimanjaro,

would be awful.

But, you know, like 1,000 years later,

you might notice your mind wandering a bit.

I say, that since God created both Satan AND Hell,

and controls all things, IS all things,

that God really IS SATAN,

and just likes to play good cop/bad cop.

Bipolar fucking hypocrite.

Moving on.

As for homosexuality,

it is often observed,

that Christians believe homosexuality

to be a personal choice.

Now,

in my own experience,

it would seem that if from YOUR perspective,

homosexuality IS a personal choice,

then at some point in your life,

YOU had to MAKE the choice to NOT be gay,

which means, of course,

YOU'RE GAY.

Which would explain SO much.

Just a note, that REAL straight people never had to make that "switch".

It just came natural. Good luck, though.

God's Will

is supposedly the ultimate force in the universe,

superceding all other forces and desires.

If that is so,

then God controls all of your actions,

thoughts,

feelings,

desires.

In a sense, at every moment God is using you

like a hand puppet,

to act out His OWN wants and needs.

And then he JUDGES you?

What an asshole.

As for the Bible,

many modern Christians,

and so many more in the past,

have taken this Bible as the ultimate word of God.

They have used the words printed therein,

as the only required justification

for truly awful things,

such as the Inquisition,

The Crusades,

The Trinity Broadcast Network,

etc.

Now, first off I would assume,

that an eternal, formless being,

would tend not to gravitate towards the written word.

Any more than the wind,

types.

Thus, it would seem

that this Bible was written

not by God,

but by people.

And we ALL know people.

People are fucking STUPID.

And, it would FURTHER appear,

that if one were wishing to truly follow the commands of God,

that they would want to be certain,

that the guidebook they used,

was accurate.

Now, a basic perusal of biblical history,

shows that the modern Bible

is merely a conglomeration

of fourth-hand historical accounts,

ambiguous allegorical myths and legends,

and political language inserted by monarchs

to keep the people under wraps.

Maybe they call it Holy,

because it's so full of holes.

And FURTHERMORE,

would not such a careless attitude,

towards the very origins

of the one guidebook

utilized by Christians,

to assure they are doing the Right Thing,

be in itself,

Sinful?

That is akin,

to starting an immense trek across the globe,

using a map made from directions,

the AM/PM guy gave you

on his smoke break.

To me,

if God truly does judge,

then those following such a fraudulent document,

lazily avoiding any research into its true origins,

while proclaiming it to be the Word of God

will feel quite a bit of Wrath,

upon crossing over.

Good luck!

And on the subject of Sex.

The church teaches repression.

Denial.

And Sex is a Natural force.

People want to have sex.

Children all masturbate.

Sexual Desire appears all on its own

in every child,

as a basic Human desire.

The church says,

NO!

Well, God made Sex.

God made us to want fucking and want BEING fucked.

He sets us up with an undeniable desire,

and THEN tells us to DENY it?

What an asshole.

Was God in the lab somewhere,

mixing up sex hormones

and giggling?

"Oh, this'll be fucking GREAT!

They can't deny this shit,

but I'll tell them they HAVE to

or they'll go to Hell!!!

I am so awesome!"

Apparently,

God gets his kicks

by setting us up with irresistable desires,

then commanding us not to act on them.

THEN, we gotta go around LOVING and BEING KIND to everyone,

even though we're all pissed off, horny, and depressed.

The Christian motto:

"Smiling on the OUTSIDE!!!"

Okay, Christ-ie's, I have some basic advice for you,

to untangle this Gideon's knot:

You were created as a being of Desire.

And it is by following your Desires to fruition,

that all the good things on Earth occur.

You Desire food, you eat and grow.

You Desire water, you drink.

You Desire love, you form relationships.

Etc.

Every other form of being on Earth does nothing all day,

but act on its desires.

No exceptions.

Trees grow towards the Sun because they Desire sunlight.

Flowers cover the Earth because bees Desire pollen.

You get the point.

And yet,

we Humans,

God's Grandest Creation,

just HAPPENED to be made,

with Desires OPPOSITE to our own happiness?

Repression of our Desires is VIRTUE?

We have a multitude of natural desires and impulses,

and the ONLY thing on this entire Earth

telling us NOT to act on them,

is an old book of deeply-questionable origin.

Hmm.

I say,

that when you repress Desire,

you repress God's only true motive for you.

As the seed SHOULD become the tree,

the egg SHOULD become the hawk,

the HUMAN, should be,

in a constant state of satisfaction,

a life of raw desire answered by its surroundings,

a continual dance of wanting and receiving,

NEVER hungry, ALWAYS FULL, ALWAYS full.

We were not made

as creatures of Desire,

just to discard these Desires,

when they frighten us,

or because an antique novel,

suggests it.

My advice to y'all,

is to put down the old book,

let go of the old stories,

and START THINKING WITH YOUR DICK.

It is truly,

God's plan for all of us.

Amen.

Psalm 69

2006-03-29T08:56:00.000-08:00

A man once asked God,

"Is it true that you know absolutely everything?"

God replied,

"Well, I know that you're boring the shit out of me."

Soul Poem in 6/8 Time (uptempo)

2006-03-22T09:23:00.000-08:00

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHH......

The World is coming to an End!

It's not at all like ya'thought it would be

The World is coming to a BIG FAT END,

And then it starts all over again.

The World is About to Begin!

The laughing, dancing, fucking, sucking,

The World is a'startin' to SPIN!

But it's slowing much faster these days.

A long time ago there were many strange things

a'happening here where the snakes have no wings

there was quite a time in the past it would seem

where the people and angels and devils did sing

There were flying machines, and great wars and the like

there were aliens flying around in the sky

there were leaders and followers, sorcerors and kings,

and everyone died and we never knew why!

And now in the present we have quite a gift

the gift of the present will give us a lift

we pre-sent this gift to the presently gifted

so unwrap your Present and find yourself Lifted!

We...Are....One....And....

We...Are....All....And...

We...Will...Ne-....Ver...

END!

And,

We are the ones who are here to emerge and we

merge as we e-merge we merge all the way,

Laughing and Dancing and Fighting and Killing and

Fucking and Sucking we surely are GAY!

Death...Is...All...There...Is...And...When...We...

Die...All...Of...Our

Past pets will-eat-us,

No one to-meet-us!

-So I'm saying the long day is graying

We don't know whatever the fuck we shall do,

And even though we are wise beyond time

there are times when the time's gone to do what to do.

We are all gonna die and

We will never know why we

but we will just the same it's a

gas it's a blast it's some dumb fucking game.

-In the end we all die we all go we all

run out our time doing nothing at all

-And the best can go first love can burst and the

rotten infestor's the last one to fall.

What the fuck are you doin' and

WHY

are you running to ruin you

ARE

what you Are and you Are yes you

Are yes you Are yes you Are yes you R!

-I would say as advice don't think twice you were

there when you started and never went back.

-It's as simple as being and seeing you

want what you want and you never can lack.

This is a whirl of confusion a World of Illusion a

pause 'till you take Absolution you

run from your Perfect and drink up the Broken and

claim ignorance though the Word has been spoken and

never again can you claim not to Know as you

sit in the glare of your Own Divine Glow and the

Heavens are open and spilling forth Love which you

catch in your mouth as it rains from above but you

still haven't finished until you've begun and your

will has dimished and still you're no fun so you

go 'round and 'round with the bullshit they tell you I

guess you will buy anything that they sell you so

just look around and accept your true Fate that you'll

still never know it until it's too late but if

anything matters at all in this place just

remember someday you'll go back home to Space.

Zod is Love,

kneel before Zod.

God's Work Pays Shit

2006-02-08T14:02:00.000-08:00

Whenever I hear someone say they are "doing God's work", I have to wonder what they mean.

If there is a God, that God is intrinsically linked to All Things.

There is no Separation.

Every action, thought, feeling, random occurrence, ionic pole reversal of an atom, eyelash falling out, galaxy collapse, trip and fall, sandwich made, EVERYTHING, is God Happening.

There can be NO THING, which is NOT God.

And no ACTION, that is not God's work.

Because, God is responsible for everything that happens, nothing left out.

So, when you are giving to charity,

you are doing God's Work.

When you give change to a homeless man,

or help a lost child find their parent in a shopping mall,

you are doing God's Work.

When you shoplift,

or deface property,

You are ALSO doing God's work.

When you expose your erect penis,

to a group of children on a field trip,

or beat your mother,

with a bowling trophy,

you ARE doing God's Work.

When you shoot a junkie prostitute up with amphetamines,

fuck her ass,

and slit her throat,

timing it ever-so-perfectly

so that her death rattle makes you come,

you are, truly, doing God's Work.

When you kidnap your neighbor's cat,

nail its paws to a board,

and skin it alive,

leaving the slumped wet carcass,

still nailed,

on their doorstep,

and the sounds of its tortured screams,

on their answering machine,

You, are being God in Action.

And when you find yourself,

holding a knife to the eye of a 7-year-old girl,

to motivate her younger sister

to continue giving you head,

friend, You're in God Country.

See,

GOD,

is EVERY THING,

period.

So, God does not exist,

except as a synonym,

for Everything.

And as such,

needs no attention.

You say,

you are doing God's Work?

Well, NO SHIT, buddy!

So's EVERYBODY, ALWAYS!

(including all viruses and genital cancers)

Don't Drop the Rape

2006-02-08T13:01:00.000-08:00

In America, rape is funny.

Now, not the rape of a woman, of course.

That's abhorrent, sickenly evil.

Rape of a man, however, is an amusing event enjoyed by most.

A man is sent to prison, the first thing people say about him is some remark about his "new boyfriend", or "don't drop the soap!"

Innuendos pointing to the fact that anal rape is prevalent in all U.S. prisons.

When a man is sentenced to jail, he is truly being sentenced to rape.

And Americans, who would be fundamentally mortified over the idea of a WOMAN being raped,

will all laugh and laugh, at the idea of a burglar, or drug dealer, or any other man convicted of a crime,

getting raped in a concrete cell.

And this rape, is a virgin rape.

Most men have never been entered anally.

Their first experience with being penetrated, rather than a loving, sensual connection, is a violent assault by a stranger, which leaves them bloody and scarred.

And the hypocrites laugh, joke, seem happy that these men are raped of their virginity as punishment for whatever they have had blamed on them.

Just another sign of how men are fundamentally DISrespected in this country.

An infant boy is 1 day old, he is strapped to a table, and his foreskin is clamped, peeled back, and severed with no anesthetic.

This leaves a permanent scar, both physically and emotionally.

It also removes the most sensitive nerve bundle on the male body, a bundle of pure pleasure sensors.

It uncovers the head of the penis, leaving it to dry and callous, ending up grey, wrinkled, and numb.

Once a man this boy will have an irrational fear of sexual intimacy, long-term result of circumcision trauma.

Lacking fine sensation, he will be forced to hammer away at his sexual partners, in order to stimulate his scarred and desensitized penis.

His lack of foreskin will also restrict his potential penis length.

Why all this trauma?

Simple, it's tidier-looking, and all the other boys are cut anyway, wouldn't want him getting singled out in the locker room!

Yes, perfectly sufficient cause for infant genital mutilation.

Now, in Africa the tribes traditionally circumcise their women.

Including excision of the clitoris.

And we Americans find this SICKENING!

How could they?

Forcibly cut off a piece of a child's genitals for some archaic cultural tradition?!?

What are they, savages?

Meanwhile, we do it to our boys at 1-day-old.

For fashion, and to fit in with the other scarred penises.

Let's start raping women.

We'll mix the prisons, make them co-ed.

Let the male prisoners play the same dominance game with the women,

leave them bruised, torn and bleeding against a concrete wall,

weeping and lost.

And we'll see if it's JUST as funny.

Now, not that the U.S. Constitution actually has anything but nostalgic value these days, but is there not a stipulation protecting against cruel and unusual punishment?

Well, would anal rape of a virgin qualify as cruel and unusual, you think?

I mean, you can't sentence a man to Rape. That's highly illegal.

But you can sentence him to captivity,

where the numerous guards just happen to miss the constant sexual assault taking place.

That's like saying,

You can't burn a man for stealing,

but you can sentence him to house arrest,

in a burning building.

It's immaterial whether these male victims of prison rape were "evil" or not.

What IS material is the self-deception.

The hidden double-standard.

The bare fact of the NECESSARY HYPOCRISY required to live as a member of the U.S. culture.

I say,

that if women expect equal pay,

and equal opportunity,

They must DEMAND,

Equal Prison Rape.

Come on, feminists!

It's one or the other!

Either you speak out for women AND men,

or bend over and spread it.

I mean every word.

Terrible Parable

2006-02-08T12:58:00.000-08:00

A man called out to Heaven:

God!

You are so grand, I truly do not deserve to live!!!

So God killed him.

Some People...

2006-02-02T11:43:00.000-08:00

We all know a conspiracy theorist or two.

And, you know, they're harmless enough people,

they mean well, but at the same time you always get the feeling they're not quite firing on all cylinders, so-to-speak.

Some of the craziest theories I have heard are attempts to explain the events of 9/11.

As if it wasn't totally obvious what happened that day, these nuts feel the need to concoct weird and ultimately impossible theories to "explain" the events. Even though it should be obvious to even the most casual observer, what went down on that historic day.

I came across the following article, which to me perfectly debunks the current most-popular 9/11 "conspiracy" theory, the one about the Arab hijackers with the boxcutters:

http://www.serendipity.li/wot/holmgren01.htm

Give it a read. I'm sure you'll find yourself nodding along (as I did).

And hey, I'm all for speculation. But when even your most basic assertions are either physically impossible or contradict the bare physical evidence, I feel you have to give it up and accept the truth.

Arabs with Boxcutters. Oh yeah, sounds reasonable to me!!!

Some people...

Paranoid Thought of the Day

2006-02-01T16:33:00.000-08:00

As I am an enthusiast of "Alternative History and Current Events" (which some dismiss as "conspiracy theories"), I have many musings about the true nature of the modern world, and the events taking place therein.

At times, I get an eerie notion that a certain thing is taking place, but also recognize that these notions can be totally based on paranoid fantasy.

So, as they come to me, I will add my paranoid thoughts here, knowing that they probably aren't true, but at the same time they're at least probable, and thus worth sharing.

Plus, if I'm right, I can say, "I told you so...sorta."

PARANOID THOUGHT OF THE DAY

In recent news, the US Government has ordered Google to release all records of web searches performed by American citizens. In a rare showing of apparent courage by a modern mega-company, Google has reportedly refused to share this info with the Gubment, leading many to breathe a sigh of relief that the Pentagon would not know how much animal porn they peruse daily.

My paranoid thought? That Google IS sharing ALL the info, and lying to the public, so that simultaneously the Public is assured they still live in a (somewhat apparently) free country, and continue to openly search, while the USGOV gets exactly what it wants(as usual).

PARANOID THOUGHT OF THE DAY #2

The growing number of military and journalist deaths in Iraq is intentional, as part of a plan to deplete the natural source of such people. Once gone, they will be replaced by those more-aligned with the current US agenda.

For example, due to a "shortage" of police in the wake of Katrina, New Orleans was policed in part by private security, hired on as SWAT members.

I saw photos of these men wearing somewhat-homemade "SWAT" t-shirts featuring a logo of a skull with a dagger through it. SWAT team, skull with a dagger through it.

My basic theory being that private security tends to be more of a gun-for-hire, with less natural ideals and more passion for abuse. Anyone who ever worked in a Mall knows what I mean.

And once the journalists are "accidentally" killed (and by the way, there are currently no penalties for or even investigation into journalist deaths by Friendly Fire), or otherwise removed(my paranoid mind sees the sudden death of Peter Jennings, then the shooting of his succesor in Iraq), then they too can be replaced by those seen "more suitable" by the current US Regime.

We'll have private security meatheads in homemade Police uniforms policing the streets with guns drawn. Bought journalists parroting the Official Story verbatim. And Dissenters being found "dangerous" and herded into the already-confirmed-to-exist detention camps recently built around the U.S.

And there, are my Paranoid Thoughts, for the day.

Musings from a Muse, Amused

2006-02-01T11:11:00.000-08:00

The Modern World is a study in self-deception.

Beings whirl around in circles, convinced they want Answers.

Then they bat away the Answers and keep spinning.

A great portion of this space will be used to address major lies of the Modern Age.

NOT because I want to expose or change anything.

But because I only speak the Truth, and this is among that.

Starting's the hardest part, so I'll grab a random handle:ABORTION

The battle rages on.

Some say abortion is murder, and want it outlawed.

Others say it's the woman's right to choose.

They battle back and forth over this issue of "Women's Rights".

And, they will battle forever, as it has NOTHING to do with the rights of anyone.

See, it has never been proven to all whether, on a level of pure biology, a fetus is an independent, living entity, or a conglomerate of cells.

If an entity, ALL abortion would be murder of a child.

If a clump of cells, then abortion is an act of intense compassion, a woman allowing her insides to be scraped and cauterized so as to avoid birthing a new soul in a compromised environment.

Funny, that what both "sides" seem to miss is that each is acting out of love, as channeled through their own belief systems.

And funnier still, that as those who believe abortion to be murder oppose it, those who believe abortion to be an excision of unwanted tissue complain about Women's Rights.

Do Women's Rights include the right to murder?

Most likely not.

If a fetus IS conscious, then abortion is murder, and neither "side" would want it.

If a fetus is a potential FOR consciousness, but not a being in itself, then abortion is an act of compassion(if only for the self), and few would oppose it.

But note here, how long this issue has been passionately argued, and divided against, and debated.

And the REAL ISSUE is never addressed.

Well, I just did. You're welcome, 3rd Dimension.

Another:The Drug/Prostitution "Problem"

In the American culture, many drugs are illegal.

Prostitution, also illegal.

You ask, Why?

And they point to the drug gangs, the addicts robbing for a fix.
They point to streetcorner whores, spreading disease and ruining families.
Oh, I forgot, drugs also supposedly ruin families.

Now, this is just the same, as disowning your child,
forcing them out onto the streets,
and when they are starved, filthy, half-insane, diseased,
you point to them and say,
"See? THAT'S why I kicked them out! They're DIRTY!"

These things are only dirty because you disown them.
You force them out into a destructive environment,
and use the fact of their destruction as justification for your condemnation.

If crystal meth, cocaine, heroin, ketamine, ecstacy, marijuana, laudanum, etc, were never criminalized, they would not be problems in "Society".

Anymore than alcohol, at least.

When alcohol was criminalized in the 1920's, moonshine became the new alcohol.
It tasted awful, was way too strong, full of impurities, and if made improperly could damage your eyes to the point of blindness.
Since sale was illegal, it became Trafficking.
Moonshine gangs popped up everywhere.
Liqour was very expensive, and one had to deal with dangerous characters to obtain it.
Violence spiked. Crime rampant.
Capone made a mint selling booze to paying American customers.

One could point to the effects of Prohibition, as justification for alcohol criminalization. Were they redundantly foolish.

However, we know that before and after Prohibition, alcohol was and is a treasured aspect of American(and Earth) culture. Available in 1000's of varieties, flavors, textures, strengths. A gloriously rich spectrum of choices, all provided by free will and a love of alcohol. Beautiful.

The moment it's criminalized, it turns to Moonshine and makes people sick,
makes violent crime skyrocket,
becomes Poison.

All the drugs I mentioned, were they made in an open market for consumer use, would be clean, pure, and cheap.

Crystal Meth is made out of common chemicals.
Mass-Produced, clean Meth should cost no more than plastic.
You could go the the (real) Drugstore, and buy a pound of Crystal for $10.

Cocaine and Heroin are both plant extracts, of hardy native plants that grow quite well on their own.
One could keep well in stock of high-grade stuff, for cheap.
Or, make their own should they choose.

At that point, the ONLY drug problem is Habituation.
And that's a personal, individual issue.

The drug "problem" is solved when cheap, high-quality drugs are available to all who need them.
No more drug gangs, no more stealing to buy drugs.
Much less sickness from drugs.

Clean heroin has zero toxicity. Major side effect is constipation.

Tea made from Coca leaves is shown to have stimulant effect comparable to Coffee, without the jitters.

MDMA and other synthetics are potentially more-harmful, but as in all things, do what you want.

The hypocrisy is that people are far more willing to criticize a Free-Baser,
than a Base-Jumper.

I mean, we ARE talking needless danger here, right?

Prostitution

The Oldest Profession on Earth.
(Though I assume giving directions was a close second)

A wise man said, if Selling is legal,
And Fucking is legal,
Why isn't Selling Fucking legal?

Well, look at the hookers. The Pimps. The crime, dirt, darkness.
These are NOT symptoms of Prostitution.

They are signs of Unlove.

TRUE prostitution is a win-win transaction between two willing participants.
It is not necessarily dirty, dangerous, shameful, or criminal.
It's just sex, fun with bodies.
And one pays the other to balance the equation.

Now, force it into the dark, and it will grow diseased.
But keep it in the open, and it flowers and glows.

Imagine, a young boy or girl, 13 or 14.
VERY horny, painfully horny.
We've been there. Lying serves no purpose here.
They can go to a clean, pretty, corner SexHouse,
pay $20 or so
and get an hour with a compassionate, skilled, and gentle partner,
who will help them find release, and relaxation,
Balance.

Or the man, married, children.
Loves his wife.
But, she does not desire sex half as often as he.
Imagine that he could find joyful release, in a clean loving place,
without the need for deceit, emotional manipulation, shame, guilt.
No need to find a Mistress.
Or lie to the Wife(or Husband, in reverse).
Just an, "I'll be back in an hour or so, I'm gonna go have an orgasm".

Or, imagine an old man(or woman).
Their spouse passed long ago.
But they still have sexual desire, however gentle.
Imagine, that they could go to a place
filled with loving, compassionate men and women,
Who remind them they are alive, and can feel joy
by getting them off, and sending them home.
They wouldn't have to sit and fantasize fruitlessly, pointlessly
They would only need to catch the Seniors Shuttle to SexHouse.
Can you imagine, the mass of walkers lined up on the curb,
and the smiling, beaming, toothless faces.

And THAT'S IT.
JUST sex. JUST joy. JUST fun.
Freedom of the Soul expressed without Fear.

The dirt and shame were NEVER part of the original equation.
They are symptoms of self denial,
the dark shadows cast by selective love,
dark places that mold over with shame.

The Modern, Accepted Norm for those seeking sex:

The formation of short-term, deceitful, manipulation-based relationships, used to tie up the emotional fears of the individual in a false sense of security in order to facilitate a brief sexual combining, leading to orgasm.

Post-orgasm, this fraudulent connection (its purpose served) severs itself, and is replaced by a game of escape FROM the relationship, facilitated by lies, the goal of which is to sever ALL connection while appearing to VALUE it and want it to continue.

If a man is in a club, and buys a woman a drink without first telling her, "I'm trying to fuck you", he is living a lie.

And if a woman, drinking that drink, believes he ISN'T, she's lying too.
Games in circles, lies upon lies upon deceit upon confusion.

FOR SEX!!!! FOR FUCKING!!!! AN ORGASM!!!

I can come by rubbing against a couch.
It ain't complex.
An orgasm is an exaggerated sneeze; who cares, just have fun with it.

To culminate in a cohesive Point,
I put it like this:

The only TRUE danger,
to the Grandest Potential of this Human Experience,
is Fear.

You stop Fearing,
and God pokes his head out,
smiles,
and sucks you off.

Seriously, try it.

You haven't had Head,
Until you've had Godhead.

Opener

2006-02-01T11:05:00.000-08:00

Let's Start in the Middle.

First off, nothing presented herein is True. All is Perception. My own Perception.

So, you are reading my heart, soul, and mind. You are NOT reading the paper, or a textbook.

Or even a blog. This is a list of all the feelings contained within me, spilled as they erupt.

This current age is one of a Grand Unveiling. Eons of self-deception and Separation end in the Unmasking of our Grand Spirit, and I for one am looking forward to the Party. Time to dance, motherfuckers.

So, if you are here, and resonate with the energy, understand that I speak for you too, even if you have never said the words. Sit back and let me remind you, who you are.

As I remember myself.